her secret diary
"Purplishes....F..e..e..l....." -.=
12/30/2011
Life is so messed up...
The day finally came...
I feel so frustrated and sad and lonely and useless...
I wish I was more independent and brave...
If only so i could let her go easily...
But I only wanted to act cool...
Act like Im all fine and mighty...
Im okay without her...
But why is there tears...
Yes...
No matter how hard it was for me in the past...
I always have her by my side...
To cheer me up...
To comfort me...
For the very first time...
I had to lose her...
This time Im really really alone...
I cant open my heart to anyone...
Or tell anyone what happened...
Im easily hurt so I always fake the Okay smile...
How I wish...
Somebody would ask...
R you Okay?
Just one simple sentence...
It can touch me deeply...
Because I believe no one would take me seriously...
No one would ever notice the slight difference in me...
Is it Okay to be alone?
Is it Okay to be lonely?
So in the end...
Im still alone...
10/16/2011
Uploading some photos...
Yo bloggy, Im finally back from my China trip and it felt awesome. 1st, GD is NOT coming back =..= @#%@# den I found out he got into some trouble with marijuana =.= #%@... but tat will not change anything. Hehe! China has got a shopping website call taobao and I bought a lot of things this time round when i went back to china. First my mum did 4 operations so nw shes resting at home. Then we also went to watch... whats that called in english? =.....- omg fail much but in chinese its 潮水 and its amazing... uploading photos in my nxt post kay. i oso went to korea. I reali had a bad bad luck! I went to korea for 5 days and the first day i basically did nothing! Just... got off the plain and went to hotel.Den the nxt day, I caught a fever. sigh. it lasted for about 3 days when the last day we gotta go back. so u can as well say tat i carry a fever with me when i visit all the places in Korea. Korea trip really disappointed me a lot. Coz, ya know, I tot I got to see all the nice tall buildings shown in the drama and a lot of stars. But its like we onli gt to visit Dong Da Men and Ming Dong. The rest of the places i visit were like mountains, hills, sea, lake, river, huts & etc. WAD THE HECK? noooooo. I rather go on some idol chasing trip to see the shops, streets and all the drama filming places. Ah, well, I got to see a GD poster outside a shop in Ming Dong so its not that bad after all. I also found that a lot of idol stuff can be found around the streets. They sell stuff like socks, spec casing, notebooks, pens, calender & almost anything u can think of. When we went to jaejoong island... rite, sry bout that its jeju island :P we took bus for like 45mins just to see a small tiny museum filled with bears =.= WTHeck. I also saw many girls on the street with a super straight n upright nose. haha. Even a pair of girls from my tour escaped and went to get plastic surgery, and they got back with a really nice face. (laugh). I finally bought OP up to book 50! yay. OP u go man! I have also finally finally punched earholes. x) BUT the stopper? behind the earring got into my ear and i suffocated. I didnt even notice when it went inside. bleh. Now im scared of the stopper so i changed a pair of earring. Now, TOMORROW SCHOOL REOPEN AHHHHHHHHHHH~!!!
9/05/2011
;) YO. im lost for 2 months now hehe and now i will be going back to china to enjoy my holiday. Ah~ let me tell u a great news. IM GOING TO KOREA! WOOHOO. for the first time in my life!! and this morning, i just heard another even more awesome news. its like i won the lottery! GD is coming back in my bday october month? omgomgomg. im in heaven!! i dun care wad girl group he will be going against coz my eyes only have him. im such a GD biased now my class all knows that im a VIP. ok back to the original topic, im going back china tomorrow! with no hw ;] or at least only a few. tats great! i finally decided to get ear holes. coz im getting earings tat my baby have. weeeeee i cant wait to get back and order alot alot of stuff online. im getting a dr dre headphone as well. weeeeee. and heartbreaker album!!!! omgomgomg. i cant find it anywhere. im so glad online has it ;] ah i dun miss sg at all. i wan to eat all the goodies n go shopping n rest in my awesome house with no one to disturb me. i will be cut off from the rest of the world without internet x] life is awesome with holidays~
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